It's true.

It's true for men to not know a girl's heart.
A girl's love.

I didn't ask for a lot.
All I asked was for you to love me.
But even that was much too difficult for such a simple person like you.
I don't find love to be hard at all.

I wish you could know.
But, you can never know.

You cheated and so my love turned into an obsession.
Yes, that can happen.

Just know this.

When she missed you, I missed you a million times more.
When she loved you,
I loved you just as much as I did before.
And before was when you began your lies.
Right from the start.
But, you didn't care when all I could do was cry.
And cry.
And cry.

And you.
Oh, you.
You will never know
this hurt that always grows
everyday and everytime I'm silent.
I turned away.
Shut myself out.
Screamed and shouted.
All of this just so I could
forget about it.

All you could say was "We're good friends."
when I would ask why you had spent so much time
with her, with her. With her.
I cried, "It's just not fair. It's just not fair. It's just not fair."
Then I remembered what mother told me.
"Sweety, it's never fair."

She runs further than she knows.

So cut the rope.
Let's give them another chance.
They're not the first ones to fake romance.
And can't you see? Apologies bleed from their eyes.
But trust is all we need.
Let's go inside.
I've found the perfect place to hide.
And someday will never come if we simply say our goodbyes.
And listen, boy.
I can't live like this another day.
No one's real. No one feels. No one stays.
And all we need is time.
Tonight we'll touch the sky.

Out of clutter, find simplicity.

You have hands to create better things for betterings.
The world is singing, "Hallelujah" but to who?
Yes, we all have so many things.
We all think that we have them all so figured out.
Good friend, it's true. It's true that nothing comes easy.
But take me.
Save me.
Change me.
Make me.
Embrace me.
Brave my heart for you. And you. And you. And you. And you...etc.
And when everyone is off and running, our hearts will break out in song about all things lovely and beautiful.

We waste our time wishing that someone else's heart was ours. And we don't think about everything else that makes us happy.

It gets so old saying "I'm trying."
But never when it's "I'll keep trying."
And when you're hearing all the memories in your ears and falling back into your old past, you realize that there's nothing you regret except that you just wished things went the way you wanted.

But,

Dear People of this World,

Listen when I say I'm glad I'm here. Hear me out when everything I believe in starts to become a reality and nothing is just a dream anymore. Believe me when I say I'm strong enough. Help me when I say that my heart isn't big enough.

Sincerely,
Charlene Kim

P.S. I'll sit under that tree. Under all those colors.
And think about all that paved my history.
And I'll forget about everything that bruised me and used me.

So broken inside.

Trying to drown out the sounds of doubt and disappointment.
Sitting.
And sitting.
And sitting.

Lonely is the feeling.
That's what it is.

Better

Every time you look at me,
I see and feel that you look so carefully.
I know that sometimes,
I'm not exactly what you thought I'd be.

I am not...
No, I will not be...

Pushed down or disregarded.
My heart. I will guard it.
I am a lot stronger than I thought.
And I'm doing much better these days.

In a world that's full of fear,
I would only wish that you were here.
All you want to change about me,
I'm who I am and nothing's gonna change that.

'Cause I am not....
No, I will not be...

Live in love.

For everything has a purpose.

A lot of others opened up.
Live a little.
Live a lot.
Please, I want to show the world what I've got.
I'm weaker than I thought I was. But also, stronger than I originally believed.
I don't know if I'm going down the wrong way or the right way.
I just know I'm going some way.
"I must be constantly reminded that I am not living this life for myself."
I forget, sometimes.
No.
I forget a lot.

And when I hate everything about the mean things that I say,
it feels like I mess up so much and I can only say,
"I hate everything about my ways."

I want to be careful.
No.
I need to be careful.
Don't tell me you love me anytime soon.
You're leaving soon.
Friends.

The time that it takes to pass it all by.
The time that it took to make me realize.
The time that it took was - unregrettable.
Yet, the time that it took was, at that moment, frightening.

It's started to come undone.
My love for the outdoors has grown.
My love for my family and friends has grown.
I love like I should.
But I live like I shouldn't.

I'll run away to the hopes that I have.
But still I'll fall back asleep in the arms of my past.
And when I wake so helpless and thinking of that, I just lay back down.
It's funny how things can stay the same and drastically change.
Some things seem so close on some days but still so far away.
'Cause the truth, you know, is that I have been hating so many things I do and say.

Stare and see that this. is. me.
The things I do might need to be thought through.
But remember that what might be right for me might not be right for you.
Life's got so much more than this.
I'm gonna be just what I need to believe and I'm gonna be that something.
I shouldn't have to feel so sad anymore.

I know most definitely that this life is a beautiful one.
There's gonna be claps and singing along.
I don't know how much but I know I will be as happy as a 1950's TV Family.
I don't really have anything intelligent to say.

When the darkness fills my senses.
When my blindness keeps me from Your touch.
Jesus come.

When my burden keeps me doubting.
When my memories take the place of you.
Jesus come.

And I'll follow you there to the place that we meet.
And I'll lay down my pride as you search me again.

Your unfailing love.
Your unfailing love.
Your unfailing love over me again.

It's beautiful outside, today.
Everyday.